Yeah! really cracked up. I woke up early today but arrived to school so late because I need to print my assignment. I know that I shouldn't be late for any reason at all. But my point is, I was just 15minutes late. and i'm part of the grace period.And besides that, I wore my uniform, that geeky all white skirt and a v-neck top.That's why my day was all cracked up.really cracked up.I wasn't suppose to learn anything today. Buti na lang, my violin teacher taught me kanina that's why I learned a lot today, and I'm excited to practice at home later. And after that, I had lunch at home before going to fort for home service.The crack thing here is the taxi.Gangsta punk tlga! as in super gastapang...todo to the highest level. This is the story, si ma'am guillen (co-teacher @Lyric) saw me after I had my home service. So sinabay ko sya kasi EDSA lng daw sya. Medyo nabagalan ako maglakad sa kanya. I have class pa kasi ng 5:30pm. and I left fort by 5pm. I assume that I can arrive at school around 5:45pm. but tlgang gastapang ang taxi driver na ito! and then sumakay kami ni mrs. guillen.Sabi nya "taft kau?ang layo nun eh tapos rush hour pa.. pwede pakidagdagan na lang ng 30 pesos?" ABA! eh di ako, syempre kung ako si kuya eh knna ko pa inaway yung driver at dinabugan..syempre, I'm not kuya, so I did it this way, "Manong, pambihira ka naman! gastapang ka.. studyante plng ako eh.late na late nko sa pasok ko. wg ka namang gobyerno!!" So mapilit ang driver. Si mrs. guillen, dahil nagmamadali din, sb nya, ako nlng mgbbgy ng 30pesos na dagdag. Okay, so pumayag ako. Pero something that makes me angry, i mean really really angry, like what kuya does on taxi drivers who did this Pero still, God told me, "Hey! Girl..Don't you know that what you're doing is not pleasing?Don't be super angry to Him, I want you to learn something from this." Yeah Lord. So instead of wrestling with God, I decided nlng not to make away the taxi driver, so ang gnwa ko, i'll go down nlng where mrs. guillen will go down, sa ayala. After paying I told the manong in a harsh, but well mannered, and angry voice. but gentle prn..hehe, "MANONG! BILIS NG METRO MO! GANGSTA PUNK KA!" and then I went down and ran from the MRT station down to rustans to get a cab. Biruin mo?wla pa ako sa kalahati ng makati, eh, nka-55pesos na patak ang metro, mula one mckinley place hanggang mckinley-ayala. eh haller ang lapit lapit nun! dapat nagfort bus nlng ako. gastapang tlga yun.So ang natutunan ko, wag sumakay ng taxi na gastapang.hehe.. Being patient. grabe.. pero gastapang parin si manong..at pg nskyan ko ulit yun, (at sna hindi na). and pag nasakyan nyo si manong na yun, around fort lng sya, hindi sya mklabas dun ksi mlamang irereklamo sya noh.biruin mo yung patak ng metro ko na upto PWU eh wla pa sa kalahati ng patak ng metro nya.kaya nga naiinis ako eh.pano nlng kya pag may nasakyan syang pulis oh kya any officer, ano kya ggwin nun?hehe..I don't know. Sna matigil na yung gnyang pang-gagastapang.grabe na eh.ang harsh. sobra pa yan sa pagmimismo skn ni nathan, na wala namang kwenta, nung isang araw.Mas naappreciate ko pa si nathan kesa kay manong taxi..hehe.:) si manong taxi parang si spongebob nung ch.ayun..:) hehe..joke lng. naalala ko lng yung gumastapang sa akin nung ch.pero forgiven na yun.pero gastapang pa rin sya..hindi yun magbabago.okay..:) pero okay na ako ngaun..hay.buti nlng mabait yung prof ko.

Yesterday at our friday service, I was so blessed with the word that Pastor Cj shared. I remember, I asked God to give me a revelation on how He wants to see my heart. As you read on, my hope and prayer for you is that you grasp what do we mean about having a father's heart. btw, Happy father's day to all! :) Even if you are not an earthly father! ;)

Luke 15:11-24(a.k.a The prodigal son)

"There was a man who had two sons. 12The younger one said to his father, 'Father, give me my share of the estate.' So he divided his property between them.

 13"Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. 14After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. 15So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. 16He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.

 17"When he came to his senses, he said, 'How many of my father's hired men have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! 18I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. 19I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men.' 20So he got up and went to his father.
      "But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

 21"The son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.^[a]'

 22"But the father said to his servants, 'Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let's have a feast and celebrate. 24For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' So they began to celebrate.

I have read this passage a thousand times, I know the story and the theme, but this another revelation is a bit different from what I have learned from sunday school, or during my quiet times. In this scripture, we can be able to see how did the "father" in this parable respond on the actions of his son. We all know that this particular son got his share of the estate and then wandered off, away from His father' presence.And after spending all his money, he then realized that apart from his father, he can't be able to live his life. He even eat what the pigs eat.

1. the father RAN when he saw his son: the father actually ran towards his son! At first, well that's what dads normally do when they see their sons. But the thing is, the son maybe smelled like a pig, and maybe so dirty that even other people can't recognize that he is a rich man's son. In short, if an earthly father sees his son like that, maybe he would scold him. I remember when I was a child, my father didn't scold me too much. My mother did those things. But when I finally do something that was really bad, my dad entered in. And I was so scared when my dad did that. I even came to the point of not loving my dad anymore because of that event. I didn't remember what actually happened but I know the pain that caused me to cry so hard, even harder when my mom disciplined me. Syempre, when I became a Christian, I finally realized that I shouldn't curse my parents or even think that they shouldn't be with me, because God placed them in my life for a purpose. Okay, the running of the father can be equated to as LOVE. He ran because He was so compassionate for his son. He loved his son more than anything else. He loved his son unconditionally. that no matter how dirty he looks, he is still his son, and he loves his son. Same through with God. He loves us more than anything else, that's why He gave Jesus. For Him to show his ultimate love for us. That's what God has been revealing to me during this season. Loving other people unconditionally, even if I don't feel like loving them, or they are not lovable, or I don't really like them. God wants us to love others unconditionally, especially our families,even friends, or other people we see each day. He wants us to have compassion for them same as He had compassion for us.:)

2. The father gave his son a RING.: The ring signifies a lot of things. It can be a marriage ring, fashion, etc. The father gave his son a ring because it symbolizes the son's IDENTITY. Nowadays there are people who suffer from identity crisis. They don't know who they really are. Their gender, their personalities. Some of these people fashioned their identity through the television, internet, and every kinds of "cool" stuffs they think about. Knowing our identity in Christ is very crucial, yet so inspiring. I recall a time when I had my victory weekend, I was so glad to know my identity in Christ. Kasi I really feel so insecure about myself.Kasi I was not as good or as beautiful as my other sisters are. (naks!) I really admit that I was a nobody. But now that I know my identity in Christ, the enemy doesn't have a foothold anymore. And if we realize our identity, we can see that we don't deserve it, but God made it possible for us to deserve it.:) so much grace and mercy..

3. The father let his son wear the BEST ROBE: Yeah! This is my favorite part. God indeed gave us our robe.not just an ordinary robe..but the best robe. it can be also equated to SECURITY. God gave us the maximum security that we need.not just physical security, but all the security that we need.:)

YIPI!! so YIPI!! I got to see the real beach for the first time. I was very happy, yet so sad kasi some of the campus harvest music team people are not there, hindi pla some, almost all of them. The people who went there are only janelle, ate charis, kuya david, kuya king, kuya jm, angge, me, sarah, philip, and jeff. Grabe, we really bond together. I remember we never had a moment na we didn't laugh at kuya david's jokes. As in! I'll never forget the polish model.. so nakakatawa!!! And all we did there was to eat, laugh, look at the beach and the waves too, smile, eat again, and laugh at the same time. Grabe! I'm so happy. I got to look at the sunset, I set my foot on the sand for the first time! I got to bond with everybody, even if that's the first time I got to meet them. I'm really happy with that experience, and I hope I can come again to kuya mac's beach resort.:) It's really amazing there! And I got tanned for the first time..:) whew!! I'm very happy...:)

     Sunset @ Zambales

Me @ work, my recent photo.. so tanned!

Now, kinda adjusting to my new sked. and what the!!! may panggabi ako. hehe.. muntikan pa masagasaan ang youth jam..di lang. nasagasaan tlga. But i'll ask the prof. kasi friday is online day for school. so baka pwede ako magonline outside the school..:) since it's online. so I can come pa at youth services. And it's nt just my school sked getting mixed up. My work din at lyric. yea.. I got to fix that also.

again... I'M EXCITED!!!!!!! when I'm excited my voice gets higher and smaller.. haha!! that's why when people tell me na kaboses ko si... bsta may kaboses ako. I'm excited pag ganun voice ko! bkt nga ba??? excited ako sa zambales outing. I'M GOING TO SEE THE BEACH FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!!!!! YIPI!!!!!!!!!!!! ayan.. excited na naman ako....YIPI!!!!!!!!! that's why. I now know why my voice gets higher...may purpose din pla yung high and small voice ko.hehe.well I miss the team too besides the thing that I can see the real beach for the first time!! YIPI!!!!!!!!!!!!! I gotta sleep now. I have class pa ng 10:30am. then P.E. I've got to pay na may tuition.. LORd thank you for the provisions....AMen!!!! I'm EXCITDED!!!!YIPI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

         Care bear says Hi!                   Lucy the care bear with me

Look oh! The sun is smiling at me!   cutie care bear and mommy

Have you ever day dreamed of something?? hehe..:)

I was just day dreaming yesterday. Actually this day dream is so matagal na. I just remember it when my friends are talking about their crushes. I remembered when I was young, really young, I day dreamed of someone. This person, is a man. yeah! I don't know if this kind of man ever existed, or will exist. I day dreamed of a man who is like this: (I'll just give you 5 characteristics.. it's so many so I sum it up na) a)likes to walk a lot, e.g. parks, at the beach, everywhere with nice sceneries b)a very excellent musician and friend c)doesn't make me cry d)very happy person e)always smiles.and wants to make me smile as well. hehe.. It was when I was a little girl. I day dreamed of someone like this. When I was sent to school, I don't know about crushes and everything. In short, I was very innocent, never knew how dreadful the world is. I thought I could see flowers outside our house, our even tall trees that I can see on tv. well, I got the idea of crushes when I was in Grade 2. And some girls tease me because I don't have any. As in. I told them that I have, but I don't know who that was. I was trying to find it on every man I look at. But I can't. Until high school... I saw Him, during one sunday service. That was God pla that I was day dreaming when I was young. I mean, He fit all the qualities that I like in a man to have. After knowing that He died for me, I was so in love with Him. That's why I day dreamed again. I want to experience again loving God in an intimate manner, no more finding the insecurities that I have when I was a little girl.

We watched Shrek 2 yesterday. I only got one revelation. even an ogre can have a happily ever after. Yeah. That was so right, everybody gets happily ever after when they are with God. :) That's when I began to day dream again, not anymore thinking if such person exist but I know if a man is with God, he will be more like Him..:) More like the God that I was day dreaming! hehe... Kaya guys, if you're finding your princess, be more like God muna. A Princess does not deserve a mere person, but a Prince, who like like His Father, who is the King! :) Happy Ever after people! hehe..:)

YEAH! hehe..:) I was just so glad, yet I miss the music team of campus harvest. I'm so glad kasi I learned a lot during the conference. But a bit different kasi I played, I enjoyed worshipping God all the more. Not because people see me, but because I have so many space in the stage!! hehe.. just kidding! It's because of the things I learned even before Campus Harvest. I was prepared by God to minister and also worship Him on another level. I miss the team also, the bonding and everything... I hope matuloy yung Zambales.. I want to see what's on a beach eh.. hihi.:) yeah! I never got to look the real beach. Not just that, I want to unwine also.

Well, I'm so excited to see my campus, to set my foot again there. hehe.. Honestly, during Campus Harvest, I want to go to my campus and minister to my classmates who are lost.. God is so amazing. :)